Do just do, live in the now

     "New things can be frightening and uncomfortable, but that's the recipe for growth." - Humble The Poet

       

 

    As I'm laying on a mattress inside of a tent looking up at the ceiling thinking about how I'm going to make a road trip from one side of the united states to the other. From Massachusetts to California then to Tijuana, Mexico where I'm planning to move to. I start to get a little pre-moving anxiety that I think is pretty typical even though I've done it before, you never get used to it. Sometimes I wonder if people should even be moving the way they do or should they stay put with their family. I turn over to the side of me and I see a book called unlearn that I read last year twice that I just recently got back from a friend of mine. I opened the book up and in big letters, it said  "New things can be frightening and uncomfortable, but that's the recipe for growth. "I thought wow this is the universe, God, whatever it is you want to call it. Immediately put me at ease. I skimmed through the book once again and noticed on the end it had some writing, It said on the last page to write your own chatper or paragraph, so i actually decided to do it. Below is what i got.

 

     Life is all about the moments, the now as I like to call it. You don't remember every step you took on your way to the beach, but you remember that day at the beach, that moment. I used to be that person that said "I'm gonna try" till I realized that I never did what I said I was going to try. Now I just do, I live in the now. I don't know where I'll be next year, next month, 5 years, shit I don't even know If I'll be here an hour from now. This life thing is flimsy, squandering your opportunities based on the fear of failure (whatever that means to you) is just foolish. I don't say that to be negative I'm simply saying you're better than that. You are all you need.

       Reading that and reflecting back on my past and seeing where my headspace was at, at that given time, give me hope and optimism on a better tomorrow. Tomorrow will come regardless of anything, we're small insignificant creatures in the bigger scheme of things. What we can do is strive for a better tomorrow. My life has never been great, it's been filled with pain and suffering, it's still not great in general, but the pursuit of more is what makes it worth it. DMX said something that can relate to that sentiment "To live is to suffer, but to survive, well that's to find meaning in the suffering"